No, the baby's not here yet. I haven't had any regular contractions, despite walking to the mall today and yesterday. The funny feeling in my throat has turned into a phlegmy cough and slightly runny nose. I know a woman's immune system drops around labor, so hopefully soon!
There's so much that comes with waiting on this baby. So many questions and fears that can creep in. What will this baby be like? Will I get any sleep in the coming months? How will nursing go with this one? How will Karrots respond to the baby? How will this baby change our family dynamics? Will this baby have all 10 fingers and all 10 toes? How big will this kid be? Boy or girl? When will he be born? How can I possibly love another baby like I love Karrots? How will labor go? How bad is postpartum going to be this time?
While these questions are running through my head, I hear Karrots' Bible Song Book playing the tune for "What a Friend We Have in Jesus" in the background. What a profound song for these questions and fears:
What a friend we have in Jesus
All our sins and griefs to bear
What a priviledge to carry
Everything to God in prayer
Oh what peace we often forfeit
Oh what needless pain we bear
All because we do no carry
Everything to God in pray
Lord, it's all in Your timing! Help me have peace about this birth and give me the ability to give you all the pain in labor. Thank you for the priviledge to ask You for help. Give my heart rest in You as we anticipate this baby's arrival. Let it all be for Your glory! Give us the ability to parent our children to know You and the skills we'll need to encourage them to be the people You desire them to be. Please let us meet this baby soon!