Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Lately I've been excusing the amount of food I eat to nursing. As I am now technically feeding both of us and she is a growing girl, I eat almost anything set in front of me...and I love it!
Unfortuntately my gluttony doesn't end with food. I pig out on movies I've seen over and over again, reading blogs, surfing the net, spider solitaire...almost anything other than reading the Word. Why?
I have a desire to read the Word for myself and discover what God wants to tell me. I've been struggling with what food is the best to eat. Does the Bible really touch on the subject? Gen. 1:29 tells us God gave us herbs, fruit and seeds to eat. Is that a command and is there more?
I would love to say that my spirit is willing to listen, but my flesh is weak for entertainment, but if my spirit were REALLY willing, I'd be daily in the Word. I make time to zone out and stuff my face and spirit with things lacking nourishment. Most of my prayer life consists of shooting quick prayers, not spending hours on my face, listening to God and struggling with issues and requests in perseverance.
Lord, when will I get it? When will my life reflect all that You desire of me? When will my questions be important enough for me to spend time seeking an answer? Change my priorities and state of mind! Get me in a routine that honors You and sets a good example for my daughter! Order my schedule and teach me not to waste my vapor of a life on things that won't further Your kingdom. Teach me to nourish myself and my daughter in Your Word.